This time of the year always brings a depth of reflection and introspection. It’s carried out in the cold mornings brimming with sluggish light, in the afternoons that fall quickly to darkness, in the crisp & brisk sun and the murk of overcast days. It’s presented alongside the final weeks of the year, a chance to weigh out the thoughts in my mind and the actions of my past and the potential actions for the future.
It’s unbearably heavy sometimes.
I know I have reason to reflect and introspect. Changes have been great and sudden and only recently have settled. I compare and contrast where I am now to where I was even a year ago. I look around, cautiously optimistic that Saturn has finished her return and left my abode. I shift what I’ve learned from one hand to the other, vacillating between pride in what I’ve become through what I’ve learned and frustration that it took me this long to learn them in the first place. Continue reading